Today, if you gave me a gun
I'd hold it against you,
I'd take away your knife.
Here we are again, circles never end
Take a pill, sleep again.
Tomorrow it will never change
What do we call it, nostrum?
Suuuuuuuuuuuuuubway. :D I still haven't satisfied my tomyamu-mian craving. Soon, soon. Night study is killing the crap out of me, I have yet to do my geography, ): I'm so tired, it's not funny anymore! D: I really hope Biology practical wasn't as bad as it seemed! Everyone was debated if the reducing sugars should or sould not be present in the water. Oh well, at least all the practicals are over and done with. Sc(P/C) was also another horror. THE PRELIM PRACS ARE OVER! Now time to study for the real intense subjects, starting with Social studies(It didn't help me in any social way. At all, really!). I don't get why it's called social studies. It's more like, propaganda of Singapore & its history.
Talking is nice. Especially when you just talk and talk and talk. About everything you never talked about. You realise things when you do that, the things you've missed, ths things you forgot. The things you have always wanted to know. Asking the questions they've always speculated about- Answering with pure sincere honesty and leaving your fate in that person's hands(If s/he decides to tell, or not). You just want to get it all out, but not to everyone, just to one or two. It's better this way.
It's hard to forget and this I regret.
WARNING, BIOLOGY OVERLOAD.
Turgid & flaccid, osmosis, diffusion and xylem plus phloem. Surface area over volume ratio. Emzymes and factors that affect them! Benedict's test, fat emulsion test, biuret test(Sodium hydroxide and then copper sulphate), test for starch and deducing from these tests! Know how to draw and label the EYE plus all the other cells and plants. Test for starch in leaf! Don't forget the alcohol and everything! Test for gas during photosynthesis. Counting the number of oxygen bubbles. THE FREAKING HEART, OMG, THE HEART(I pray no hearts or prawns, okay?) Know the xylem and phloem plus cambium. Oh and the parts of the leaf! The homeostasis experiment(Wrapping tissue around the cups of hot water!). Ps, choroid coat in the eye prevents refractino of light internally! (: Drawing of flowers? Pffts, dies. Calyx, sepal, remins of style, pericarp, testa(What the hell are these right? I haven't read this chapter in years okay!)... How they are modified for disersal.
Tomorrow's the practical! :X Fingers crossed. I'm super tired, oh yes, thank you for the fooooooooood. I hope the lady who sprained her ankle today is okay!
Still feels like I'm dreaming with eyes open wide. Well, I'm praying and crossing my fingers it will always stay this way. If you gave me a gun, I'd kill me first.I wouldn't shoot you.
Sunday, July 29, 2007
I made this, woohoo! :D
I should change my layout- Yes, no? I'm still thinking of what to put. Watched the simpsons, Maggie spoke a word! :D The first word her family thought. But one of the episodes she did say one word, it was amazingly cute.
Today, I ate SUBWAY. S-U-B-W-A-Y! I don't look thaaaaaaat old okay Pan. Everybody, I don't need a pee, I need a PAN. PAAAAAAAN. :D
You don't get it do you?
Saturday, July 28, 2007
HEEHEEHEE! :D Torres ♥
I am exhausted. Woke up at six plus, as usual. I am so sleep-deprived now, but I just can't sleep. :/ I seriuosly need sleeping pills or something, my brain refuses to stop working. One thing is stuck in my head, but I can't do anything about it. Had tuition in the afternoon and after that headed for Esplanade with Pan. Later Prinesh came. Had dinner with Prinesh at Cafe Cartel. We both nearly died when we realised the bill was one buck more than what we had. Then we were searching frantically for cash and suddenly Prinesh found her CC discount card! Hahaha, super funny. (:
This picture is so cute! :D
Maybe you should read the italics.
Friday, July 27, 2007
"You'll have to deal with something that is not your responsibility-- Do it well"
That's my damn horoscope. Sometimes I wonder if I'm a skeptic of a true believer when these things seem so true, seem so real. Yet they can have so many meanings we are able to relate to. Its scope so wide, almost anything could be encompassed.
I aim for grandiloquence, perfection in both speech and composition. Perhaps so that one day I may communicate without you understanding a single word. Then, just maybe we wouldn't need to say anything anymore.
Sometimes, the first thing you want never comes
Do you understand?
I am super moodswing-y nowadays, sucks. Sorry. Those in school, I'm really sorry about all the outbursts. (String of colourful language) The stress is getting to me, I'm starting to take a piss at everyone. I'm, being a berk. I should stop. Okay, stop.
Thursday, July 26, 2007
Today it rained like there was no tomorrow. At the bus stop it was all screams when the fine mist blew into our faces. I wanted to call someone and stay out until the rain subsided so I could walk home without being drenched. But everyone was either going home or had plans. So I ran home with my pinafore entirely wet. Dranched, soaked, whatever.
I didn't like how today ended. I seriously need to atleast one swear word, fuck all the shit you've said. Fuck you. No seriously, fuck you.
I'm stong on the surface, not all the way through.
I've never been perfect, but neither have you.
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Dave left the band, I don't really blame him. Their management was pretty much crap. But I'm quite sad and everything, I went :O NO WAY when KXY told me in Geography today. Shock of my life!
Anyway, I love Geography remedials(Though I'm not supposed to be there, heehee!)! They're super fun. :D We're always laughing at every single thing! Even the teacher laughs along when I get "heartache" when I don't know how to do the question. Either way, Geography lessons are fun. Had a mini picnic in the morning, with chocolates and chips. Food is good, yes, agreed.
For some stupid reason, I can't wait for PE tomorrow. I know I'll regret when it comes, but I just can't wait. School is good, alot of things there may suck sometimes but overall it's good. Maybe it's because I'm starting to forget the bad things and only concentrating on the good things. Tomorrow shuold I study? Hmm.
You'll find it in the deepest friendship
The kind you cherish all your life
And when you know how much that means
You've found that special thing
You're flying without wings
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Today my stomach hurt. Other than that, I was serious and studied and laughed alot. That is good, am I not wrong?
Geography lessons are fun, sitting between JC & KXY. Today, I joined TES(The Emo Society)! Haha! It all started with KXY drawing herself with her now emo-punk hair on her hand & mine. Then she wrote TES on both our hands. We are not allowed to get excited and we sulk all day. Care to join? Membership is free! Plus, you get to be tattooed(temporary though!) every Geography class(if you sit next to us, hee! :D). Look at all the benefits! :D So everybody, join TES(If the society still exists after I post this post, you may be joining another society by accident, all casualties are not insured!)
I don't look that fierce do I? I feel like some scary monster going Rahh and all the little children scatter at my presence. Haha! Okay, I am talking nonsese. We ordered Macs after school and it was a FEAST I tell you, the food was mmmmmmmmm. During night study, CharGoh&I went to the toilet and literally went crazy. When we came out, she started jumping to see if anyone noticed her popping out from behind the mirror. I jumped twice, but everyone was like starring at her with the -.-" face! HAHA. Our group at the back was just laughing their heads off at the Macs socks comment(inside joke). After that we couldn't stop laughing. Then we all went downstairs to leave. Steph&I waited in the foyer while CharGoh&Bhag attempted to go to the toilet. Attempted, they did not make it. HAHAHAHAHHA, they were scaring each other and kept running away each time they got near. When they both stood outside the toilet, they were pushing each other to go in first(What the hell right? Haha!). In the end, Steph&I accompanied CharGoh.
What a day.
Maybe sometimes I'm vile, rash and I don't seem to give a damn, but maybe I'm just waiting for you to say something- So I'll know this is real.
Monday, July 23, 2007
If someone close to me died I'd die too(Not literally!). Or maybe just a part of me would. Don't you think so? I'd be contemplating everyday, the things I shold have said and the things I'd gladly take back. If even now I can't control how I feel about everything, I can't bear to think of what I'd be feeling if someone close died. If an empty space can carry more than a memory, a picture can speak more than words can express, then what would emotions do?
I'm not depressed/emotional. I just saw someone's friendster(The person passed away a few months ago) and there were like messages of "I miss you"s and "You're loved", sucks don't it- Seeing all that, them being unable to change nothing you said or done to/for that person.
Think about it.
You should try the boshi place(sushi place @ GWC B1), the lunch set is quite good, besides the fact that the meat are mircomolecules and spicy isn't exactly spicy. If you want sushi buy take-aways, they're much cheaper. Plus they won't have service charge included in them! Had lunch there with CharGoh, VannaKoh(Wanna) and ClariceWai(Vai!). Why the interswitching of Vs and Ws? We were practicing our accents today & this teacher came in(She had that particular accent) and StephChen screamed 'OHMYGOD!' because it was so coindidental! And I, went 'shut uppppppp!' in that accent, the whole class heard me. How embarrassing! I hid my face behind my bag for the next five minutes and Steph and I were in fits of laughter, literally. Funny lesson, no?
Word of the moment, from the spur of a thought(haaaaaaaaaaa, right...); Falliable.
Sunday, July 22, 2007
An empty space is all that's left,
of where my heart should be.
The love that once lit my life,
now just a memory.
I miss you more than words can say,
but nothing stops the pain.
And if I could, I'd turn back time,
to see your face again.
Sweet, no?
The word anomaly appeared in Harry Potter And The Deathly Hallows. The book isn't bad, it's about 8.3/10? That's personally for me. Quotes one sentence, "I...maybe...yeah". I like that sentence! It seems so real.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nmKfev0xRn4 Somebody tell me the title of this song! It's so angelic-ish. Just like Whisper Of Angels! I've been waiting ten minutes and it hasn't even loaded finished yet! ): OMGOMG, IT'S WITHIN TEMPTATION. (: It's called Pale. How depressing.
I'm just waiting for the day after tomorrow, so that I can eat cheeseprata! Haven't eaten that in a really long time. Only had the tissue cheese prata, but it can never beat the normal cheese prata. Plus, I want to eat Tomyam U-Mian soon! I had VienTai Tomyam noodles today, super spicy & hot. The noodles were glass noodles and sort of hard to pick up as they were uncut and really really long! I swear I am going to balloon up and explode soon, due to this feasting.
Chocolate eclairs from ColdStorage or which ever super market it was from, don't taste that good frozen. It makes the chocolate taste kinda funny if you eat alot.
Why am I talking about food? I don't know. I'm thinking of popcorn & nachos with cheese now. Talk about indulgence!
Have to try to break free
from the thoughts in my mind.
Use the time that I have,
I can say goodbye,
have to make it right.
Have to fight, cause I know
in the end it's worthwhile,
that the pain that I feel slowly fades away.
It will be alright.
WITHIN TEMPTATION! (:
Saturday, July 21, 2007
I woke up early for Harry Potter today! Currently I'm at page 190, taking a break. My eyes are dying! I need eyedrops, U-mian(tomyam) & macadamias.
OH, PLUS JELLY BEANS.
This book is so, full of deathly hallows! Haha, go read it.
Friday, July 20, 2007
"She had no doubt that he was authentically upset those times he walked away from
her; however she believed that falling into an old, familiar behavior pattern
made things easier for him. Made the waiting less painful." I want to be FOREVER YOUNG.
Comprehension is funnnnnn! :D (According to Mr Charles Barton, who seems really animated to me!)
I am going to be missing in action for a long long time. During this entire period I will be easily irritable and will most definately keep to myself, unless someone manages to break my trail of thought and bring me 'back into this world'.I feel like a pressure cooker. I need to have some (As they call it in Geog-) pressure release.
Okay, bye.
Thursday, July 19, 2007
I came home so early, I have no idea what to do. I haven't been home this early in a long time. I know it isn't exactly early but I really haven't been home early.
During Geography, KXY drew a heart on my right wrist and outlined half of it in pen. (It was drawn with an eyeliner pencil which cost like 18 bucks, crazy no?) How emotional. Emo isn't exactly a word.
Okay, I'm off to eat my first proper meal at home in a long time, bye.
But it hurts when I think, when I let it sink in
& the tears are pouring
& I wanna make it worth the fight
But what have we been doing for all this time
Remember when you said that you would change
Don’t let me down
I don't say what's on my mind
But you'll find this out in time
Don't always open up
I'm not quick to trust
And let someone inside
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
So, yesterday and today, I laughed my ass off. But after all that, all I felt was the stomch aching, no happiness, no euphoria. I think I've been a jerk, somehow. If that's worldy possible. Anomaly. If there was a word of 'best fit', this would be it. Make it okay, I miss you.
This song is sadomasochism.
Monday, July 16, 2007
Today, I was in a bad mood. I'm really sorry to all those in school who had to put up with my shit; Especially Bhags, thanks eh. I was really mean today even though you were like already... You know. Sorry about Chemistry. I recommend you all not to punch lab tables, they're really hard.
Anyway, school was a blast even though I was like. Yeah, horrible. I'm quite glad the chinese O's are over, no more chinese unless I fail. I hope I won't......... I should just keep quiet and stop saying anything mean. Then we can all pretend to be happy and live in this plethora of lies. Just pray we don't get caught in the net we've woven.
If life were a movie, I would want it to be like this. No, not that scene, the whole movie is depressing.
Sunday, July 15, 2007
I like SUBWAY. (: Don't you?
The perfect words never crossed my mind
'Cause there was nothing in there but you
I felt every ounce of me, screaming out
But the sound was trapped deep in me
I still haven't gotten my skinnies, I was so undecided. Even after trying both I just couldn't decide on which on I shold buy, or even if I should buy at all. But I think I'll look funnnnnnnnnnny. So I was like, I need GAHBAT. Hahaha! You better be honoured, I thought of you, how gross right? Haha!
All I wanted, just sped right past me
But I was rooted fast to the earth
I could be stuck here for a thousand years
Without your arms to drag me out
I feel like an anomaly, a deviation from the normal. I think I just prooved it. I am sweaty & sticky, Singapore is getting warmer by the minute, this sucks.
When you’re standing at the crossroads
And don’t know which path to choose
Let me come along
Cause even if you’re wrong
I’ll stand by you
Anyway, I bet you've never heard the story of the parallex error that led to a thousand dollar cash withdrawal! Haha, it's true. It can actually happen!
Nothing you confess could make me love you less
The stupid song "I'll stand by you" has been stuck in my head for a really long time now, so I decided to put the lyrics here, though it cliche and old and whatever else, I keep hearing it over & over. Yesterday on the radio, today in Subway.
Saturday, July 14, 2007
I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared
After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here
So if you're asking me I want you to know
This song is super depressing. I was "video-hopping" on YouTube.com and came across this Torres/Atletico compilation. I was bored & already quite depressed from the whole Torres saga and all the idiots who keep giving him shit. Being me, I watched the video. It is so depressing, I won't even bother posting it here. For you-who-are-reading, it won't be so depressing, but for me it can't get any worse. )':
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
I should just stop listening to depressing songs right? Haha, I can't. Don't believe me? I'd choose a depressing song anytime over those happy(Whatever else you call them) songs.
Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what I made
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you
So if you're asking me I want you to know
Maybe she's right, maybe I don't call anymore. I can't remember the last time I did. Maybe when you're free, keep me in your memory.
Forgetting all the hurt inside you learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are
Friday, July 13, 2007
I support both Manchester United & Liverpool.Why can't I? I can support whoever I want. I don't care if one calls the other scouers or they can't get along. I like opposites. Just like how I think Draco/Hermione should be together, see how twisted my mind is?What are we supposed to do, after all that we've been though? When everything felt so right is wrong, now that the love is gone. There is nothing left to proove, now here to deny the simple truth. Can't find a reason to keep all day long, now that the love is gone.
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Fuck this hurts, I won't lie. Doesn't matter how hard I try. Half the words don't mean a thing and I know I won't be satisfied, so why try ignoring him? Make it a dirt dance floor again say your prayers and stomp it out. When they bring that chorus in, I bleed it out digging deeper just to throw it away.
Let me introduce to you Lulu, Lala & Lele. Doesn't class just rock when people reminisce? I'm feeling angsty! All influenced by the angry people. I bought the sour squrty liquid thing today, super sour. I went (sdufberkrjfnkugdalkdwnqlihfwojd!) when I first tasted it, it was super sour. But it helps keep me awake, so Friday, it's coming out! :D
Seriously, I can't wait to have TomYamU-Mian again. Sponsors please. Hiny Bhags, haha! Where's my nuts?
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
If I was Claire, I would want my Henry DeTamble, but since I'm not Claire, I want to be.
I would love to watch Plastic Flower being performed live! :D Lena Park's voice is really nice, she should become ballad/goth singer for life.
Self study: Most productive on Mondays, noisy on Tuesdays. Wednesdays are still a huge looming question mark. Fridays, there is tuition. So I only have Thurdays plus the weekend free, which is quite good.
By the way, you should have Tom Yam U-Mian and after that, indulge in Hershey's chocolate bars. It's almost like eating a piece of heaven. Somebody buy me these two things. :D HAHAHAHA.
I want to tell you everything, but the chances are that I won't.
Sunday, July 08, 2007
Going for the concert soooooooooon, byebye!
Man: How much can you really buy with a dollar in China?
Friend: You wouldn't believe it! I got rice and chicken and shit, it was all for 8 cents! And in Europe they charge you 4 euros for a drink at the shops!
Man: Wow, there's shit in the rice? No wonder it's so cheap. They must have put it there and laughed at all the tourists after that.
(Based on a real conversation in soccerpulse)
I'll be clear about Friday. Atheena, she danced really well & it was awesome & all that. Plus she got whistles(& the teacher starred at the wrong person, lol)! That's for you Atheena, now I've said it. Thereeeeee. (: OH! Plus, the three people on my left were Joachim, Kenny & Nathan. There you go, the names! Finally right? Haha. Now you all can't pester me anymore. HEEHEE. :D
Friday, July 06, 2007
I'm am so tired that I fell asleep in chinese today. Actually it was a nap, kinda. That was just the second period of the day? Haha. Today was a really really really long day.After school, went to tuition & then came back to school. Then- watched the performances(Ohmygoodness, headache okay!). The last two were the nicest. My head was throbbing & the teachers kept pacing up and down, starring at the people next to me when ever they made noise. The nicest part was 845 onwards, towards the ending.After everything, we went to (I can't remember the name of the place) & ate + drank. I think my head is going to start throbbing again if I don't get some sleep soon.So, GOODNIGHT!(Ps, try tissue prata if you haven't)
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
THERE'S THE PICTURES! TORRES THE LIVERPOOL PLAYER.
Byebye Atletico, hello Liverpool.
Hi, I just watched Torres on tv twice today. That's the advantage after he went to liverpool. I'm kind of sad he left Atletico, but it was his choice. I shall support him. I want that clip of the interview in which he sad goodbye to the atletico fans. What he said was so saaaaaaaad, it make me go aww! ): I shall not kill you wih my Torres obsession. Okay, school. It was alright? I guess. Marcella and I laughed until she cried today. It all started with the "I love my Zuraida", written by Zuzu's daughter. She said she told her daughter must write mummy or else people will think that she calls her mom Zuraida! HAHAHAHA. Then Gen sat like an "ah pek"(According to Zuzu). OH! & DURING MATH, MS WONG STUCK HER TONGUE OUT AT ME! HAHAHA. Why? Because I told her she didn't teach us how to write the statements, I wrote my statements for my homework today! I'm a good kid. Haha! (: Tomorrow, chinese O level orals. Crosses fingers & toes & thumbs. Heh.
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
Everybody, I have an announcement to make.
Fernando Torres is going to Liverpool.
He is coming to the EPL.
"Torres is back in Spain today and has verbally agreed terms with Liverpool on a £90,000-per-week contract and is expected to hold a farewell press conference in Madrid on Wednesday morning before flying to Merseyside to undergo a medical and finalise the deal."
My next video, Torres's life in Atletico and the depature. I'm going to miss staying up unearthly hours to catch a glimpse of Torres & screaming my head off. Heh! Now I can watch him many times every single day. Dreams.
I liked yesterday, I like today.
I liked yesterday more than I did today.
Monday, July 02, 2007
I was just waiting for something to happen today & then there was three knocks on the door. I looked outside & I went ohmy(Opens door)god!
The five of them standing out there, with a cake & singing happy birthday. I nearly died cause I was trying to find my keys frantically! Haha, I was shaking okay! Charissa, Felicia, Leslie, Joachim & Rachel. I love the five of you VERY VERY much. :D I couldnt cut the cake properly cause I was shaking! I can't believe it still, I was smiling to myself like an idiot!
Thank you very very much, seriously. I still can't believe you did that! Rachel Pan told me 'll call you & you come to GWC. In the end, you all conspired! :O & I had the best birthday ever. Now I wonder why I hated birthdays. Right now as I'm typing this, I'm still smiling to myself. Heh!
& I was doing ss halfway when they came. I didn't knowwwww. I can't believe I didn't know. Then we went to watch Transformers. Charissa & Joachim left. Dawn, Jerry & Camillus were outside GV waiting, but we only had tickets for five, so Dawn & Jerry left. But still, I liked today alot. Especially the part when I opened the door! Haha!
I'm off now(I hope I can finish my work in time!) :X
Sunday, July 01, 2007
I don't want to grow old! During a census, when asked for his occupation, he replied "footballer".
I believe in faeries, I believe in faeries, I believe in faeries, I believe in faeries, I believe in faeries, I believe in faeries, I believe in faeries, I believe in faeries, I believe in faeries, I believe in faeries, I believe in faeries, I believe in faeries, I believe in faeries, I believe in faeries, I believe in faeries, I believe in faeries, I believe in faeries, I believe in faeries, I believe in faeries, I believe in faeries, I believe in faeries, I believe in faeries, I believe in faeries, I believe in faeries, I believe in faeries, I believe in faeries!
The census-taker, misinterpreting his accent, wrote "fruit boiler."
I finally finished reading "The traveller's wife". It's one of the best books ever, it's not one of those books with lots of fluff. It has little fluff, surprisingly. It's sort of sci-fi, so if you don't like sci-fi, don't bother. You'd hate it from the start. I loved the ending though, it was amazingly beautiful & you have to imagine. It reminds me of the cliffhanger in "Of Mice & Men", only thing is this book captures and enthralls you from the very start. You just want to continue reading when you start on the first few lines. The book just captivates you, you go on and on and you don't stop until you reach the end. Read it, the ending is partially cry-worthy. I give this book 8.7 out of 10. Ps, I'm a critic. :D
I'm growing old, I can feel it.
